Saturday, December 22, 2007

Dong Zhi, Winter Solstice




Today is Dong Zhi, and for some families it's bigger than Chinese New Year!
And today is also the first day we left our dear Kay Yee at nanny's house for sleepover.
Due to my Hg and her dad's frequent daily overtime during this period of time, we had no choice but to turn to our nany for help. We have managed to arranged with her to take care of our dotter at nite too during weekdays...
The night seems long...without Kay Yee's laughter, mischievous acts and hugs...tick tock tick tock..it's only 8pm. I am starting to miss her badly.
To cure my longing for her...I numb myself with news, Korean, Taiwanese drama on TV, but no positive resuts...still miss her lotsss.....so I decided to take a shower and plug myself into my bed with a nice book, The Secret which I have yet to finish reading it....anyway..what's the initial plans and reason for such arrangement? So that I can finally get much needed rest, recuperate and hopefully able to recover faster from HG and start feeling alive and well again.
So at 9pm, after shower I just pour myself a thermos of warm water, plus the book beside my bed, on a nice CD..and started talking to my foetus...my dear little one whom I have been neglecting due to the fact that I can't even feel well enough to think of him/her during my heavy HG period. I started to chat wiht my little one inside....hopefully we will get through this together and we'll be better very soon. This soon will pass and mommy will finally have some time and mood to bond with you.
This quiet moment alone...with just me and my little one in my womb makes me recalled back my first pregnancy experience. This is the solitude time that you can hardly find in your second pregnancy...when u will constantly having the older kid wanting your attention etc. So I am grateful for this moment...
Very soon in few hours time we shall see Kay Yee....maybe tomorrow we can bring her back to see her grandparents...it's Dong Zhi..a reunion time...and let her taste her first tang yuan, a traditional and must-have food for the day!
We should all preserve this warmth and lovely occasion with our family members....and hopfeully our family members too are longing for our homecoming...just like how I longed to see my child.....it's just a sad thing to see nowadays..especially urban folks...many times we are caught up with too many engagement to really stay at home and wait for the return of our family members with a nice home-cooked meals or a bowl of Tang Yuan..we have just this many events, wedding dinners and etc etc to attend to? Or merely we have lose the heart for such family reunion? Hopefully I'll start with myself..time to pick up how to cook a  nice and simple tang yuan from my mom or in-law so that instead of waiting the warmth to come to us..I'll bring it to them...not to mentioned...the fun of rolling the balls of tang yuan together as family.."oh..what fun it is to do with whole fa-mi-ly..."...Ho Ho Ho..Christmas next...
         

Monday, December 17, 2007

Imitating the HG mom

Yesterday after witnessing my frequent vomiting acts for sometime, my 1 yr plus dotter..finally doing some acts herself.

She imitate the way i spit(or vomit..since she has nothing to vomit..she just spit her saliva all over the living room), patting her chest and covering her mouth. At that point of time , I felt a bit guilty...shouldn't have let her see how i vomited. Her dad is definitely not amused! He was furious for the mess the little girl did on the stools and floor and give her a slap.

This is just one of the episode i witness my husband losing his patience with our daughter when he finds no other ways to vent his pent-up frustration i guess...

Ever since having severe vomiting, most of the housework falls on him. Not to mention his increased workload in the office.

I can feel his stress....but there's nothing much I can do to help not that I am not willing to....

Felt kinda helpless at times...

I hope this will end soon.....my HG will soon end...pray hard for me...