Friday, December 28, 2007

Third Day without KY

Before I go on about Third Day without Ky....i must say yesterday while taking shower I had a shock of my life...I actually overheard Ky's coice singing her favourite song Rasa Sayang...and calling me mommie.....I had even hear the sound of the door I thought perhaps my husband finished work early and brought her back..but's only I went out and took a close signs of them...I must be missing her too much!

Later seems that my husband really did come home early that night and actually went to pick her up at nanny's place but she has went out "kai kai" with the a nearby auntie's place which my husband do not know he came back n tried to wake me up and ask me if I know the direction.....but I was like usual..zombie-like sleepy..and as always thought he came back after midnite..did not really answer his call and went back to sleep.....

Then when I finally woke up at 12.32am...I was surprised when he told me that he actually managed to come home early but failed to pick up Ky! I regretted so much for not waking up the moment he calls much so of getting used to his late night home and countless disappointment of his promise "ok...will come back asap...which often ended up after 11.30pm" So I thought maybe this time round...perhaps he won't be back so soon after all....BUT I WAS WRONG!! TOTALLY WRONG!!!!!

This teaches me a GOOD lesson! Never "pretend" to be sound asleep or whatsoever...face the real situation no matter how cruel the fact is....otherwise u might just missed the opportunities....

Now I have to suffer whol night for my wrong decision to stay sleeping....Oh how I miss my dotter....Tonight We MUST bring her back! Please let me feel well enough to take care of her tonight....

Please leave me alone tonight HG... I want to be with my dotter.

I am sure I can do it! Gambatei!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

Second Day without KY

Tonight marks the second day Ky sleepover at nanny's place. As I have not recovered yet from HG even though I have past my first trimester(I should be in Week 13-14 now), I am still unable to take care of her at night while my husband away at work.

Tonight at 12.34am, I received a sms from my husband saying that he misses Ky, a little bit surprising for me as initially he was the one at early beginning who did not hesitate of suggesting putting Ky for night care but I refused then since I was still breastfeeding Ky. That time he was losing sleep due to the night waking of Ky in her early months as infant.

So, hearing this from my husband that he misses her touches me. So, now I am wondering will he still suggests to put the second one with old nanny for night care near my parents-in-law place, which means we will only be able to see the baby once a week.(This makes me shudder at the thought of it)

I hope a better arrangement can be done before the arrival of the second one. I wouldn't want to put the baby for night care if possible. I hope Ky by then would sleep well thru the night and even help out as a big sister. But I should not have too high expectation on her as she would still be a toddler then by the time the second one arrives( she would barely reaching 2yrs old then). Let's just keep my finger crossed and pray for the BEST!

Now, I need to get back to work and make sure I complete my task at hand on time....I cannot let my bosses down for all their kind understanding of my situation as a HG sufferer.

Adious....wait for my better news to come! the coming of Year 2008!

Monday, December 24, 2007

May the X'mas brings the ending of the HG-hood

After a good rest last Fri. nite without my dotter around..I had a wonderful vomit-less Sat and just felt a bit nausea on Sun. but nonetheless the day managed to passed without a single vomits...I had two days with good appetite.

However today the vomitting seems to come back? Was it because it is a working day? Or just simply because I take things easy and overworked( I mopped the whole house after seems to be getting better..coz it is simply too dirty...more than one month I did not clean it), thus the vomitting returns? I am not sure..but certainly I am gonna take extra care rest well...

Tomorrow Christmas day is another busy time for us...heading for a housewarming party with some great friends...pray hard that it'll be another smooth-sailing day...

HG-hood is finally gone for good!'s Christmas Day! (Psst...Pray hard my husband don't have to work Overtime tonight and I get to have a good rest!)

Saturday, December 22, 2007

Dong Zhi, Winter Solstice

Today is Dong Zhi, and for some families it's bigger than Chinese New Year!
And today is also the first day we left our dear Kay Yee at nanny's house for sleepover.
Due to my Hg and her dad's frequent daily overtime during this period of time, we had no choice but to turn to our nany for help. We have managed to arranged with her to take care of our dotter at nite too during weekdays...
The night seems long...without Kay Yee's laughter, mischievous acts and hugs...tick tock tick's only 8pm. I am starting to miss her badly.
To cure my longing for her...I numb myself with news, Korean, Taiwanese drama on TV, but no positive resuts...still miss her I decided to take a shower and plug myself into my bed with a nice book, The Secret which I have yet to finish reading it....anyway..what's the initial plans and reason for such arrangement? So that I can finally get much needed rest, recuperate and hopefully able to recover faster from HG and start feeling alive and well again.
So at 9pm, after shower I just pour myself a thermos of warm water, plus the book beside my bed, on a nice CD..and started talking to my dear little one whom I have been neglecting due to the fact that I can't even feel well enough to think of him/her during my heavy HG period. I started to chat wiht my little one inside....hopefully we will get through this together and we'll be better very soon. This soon will pass and mommy will finally have some time and mood to bond with you.
This quiet moment alone...with just me and my little one in my womb makes me recalled back my first pregnancy experience. This is the solitude time that you can hardly find in your second pregnancy...when u will constantly having the older kid wanting your attention etc. So I am grateful for this moment...
Very soon in few hours time we shall see Kay Yee....maybe tomorrow we can bring her back to see her's Dong Zhi..a reunion time...and let her taste her first tang yuan, a traditional and must-have food for the day!
We should all preserve this warmth and lovely occasion with our family members....and hopfeully our family members too are longing for our homecoming...just like how I longed to see my's just a sad thing to see nowadays..especially urban folks...many times we are caught up with too many engagement to really stay at home and wait for the return of our family members with a nice home-cooked meals or a bowl of Tang Yuan..we have just this many events, wedding dinners and etc etc to attend to? Or merely we have lose the heart for such family reunion? Hopefully I'll start with myself..time to pick up how to cook a  nice and simple tang yuan from my mom or in-law so that instead of waiting the warmth to come to us..I'll bring it to them...not to mentioned...the fun of rolling the balls of tang yuan together as family.."oh..what fun it is to do with whole fa-mi-ly..."...Ho Ho Ho..Christmas next...

Monday, December 17, 2007

Imitating the HG mom

Yesterday after witnessing my frequent vomiting acts for sometime, my 1 yr plus dotter..finally doing some acts herself.

She imitate the way i spit(or vomit..since she has nothing to vomit..she just spit her saliva all over the living room), patting her chest and covering her mouth. At that point of time , I felt a bit guilty...shouldn't have let her see how i vomited. Her dad is definitely not amused! He was furious for the mess the little girl did on the stools and floor and give her a slap.

This is just one of the episode i witness my husband losing his patience with our daughter when he finds no other ways to vent his pent-up frustration i guess...

Ever since having severe vomiting, most of the housework falls on him. Not to mention his increased workload in the office.

I can feel his stress....but there's nothing much I can do to help not that I am not willing to....

Felt kinda helpless at times...

I hope this will end HG will soon end...pray hard for me...

Thursday, December 13, 2007

Creative Eating sooth the Hunger Strikes

What to do when you are damn hungry, packed your rice but forgot to take the spoon, stuck in a place with no access to cutlery?

Hunger strike for an expectant woman can come anytime and strike like lightning...either you are hungry or you don't. And when it hits you, it is worse than having gastric pain. Once you don't manage to fill your tummy in time, HG mother would gets spells of vomitting again....

So I recalled during my younger days...staying together with my housemate, Wei Wei , we often travelling together...once we were without spoon too ..and what we did? We just tore off the corner of the lunchbox and transform it into a scoop! at least we have something to eat with..finally...

And this creative idea strucked me when i was so frustrated, stranded in my husband's office(due to his sudden work assignment, waited there for more than 1 hr 30 minutes after long day at my own work and meeting) ...this can be such a bad day if it is not for this sudden sense of humor and delights...

After finishing my meal, feeling satisfied and happy...again...happy that a change of thought save my day!

Life does needs some creative juices and ideas at each moments, to make it or rather change it from disasters to miracles!

Happy exploring and letting your creative juices falls over u..

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Hyperemesis gravidarum (HG)

What is exactly the cause of my severe vomitting spells? Is it purely a common morning sickness that affects most expectant mother?

Having experienced it during my first pregnancy, the second time round was expected to be the same even though not easy to expect but it is definitely not easy to deal with.

15 times vomitting in a single...that's the record for my second about that? During my first pregnancy my highest record was only 7 times in a day...should I say, congrats! U have now broke your own records!

Sigh....yesterday I have went for a drip of two bags of glucose and saline ....right after reaching the 15 times award.

And guess what this second time experience has made me research and my symtom has a name! It is actually called Hyperemesis Gravidarum! So it is what is this find out more about this..just type this term in google and you'll find lotsa info on it...meanwhile...i need to pen off now...fetching my dotter shortly...ciao....